Fear

I'm afraid.

Of what? I don't know exactly. I feel fear and nervousness today. Fear of being unhappy? Fear of being happy? I don't know. There comes a point when you realize your life isn't everything you thought it would be. I never thought I'd be 30 and be here. I thought it would be different. Fear of failure? Fear of success? I don't know. What even makes a person successful? Isn't it different for everyone?

I look at my surroundings, and alhamdulilah, I'm not unhappy. What is it that's missing then? What is it that I fear?