Breaking Point

I feel as though I am reaching my breaking point. I have had enough of everything lately. Today I was feeling the need to leave. I felt the need to start over in a totally different place. Find a job in a different state. Move away and meet other people. Start my life over somewhere new.

I am tired of my ex-husband and my friend's ex-husband. The two of them don't know how to let go. They feed off of each other's stalker issues. They creep me out. I don't want to be violated anymore. I don't want my friend to be violated anymore. Her ex called and was talking to me like I was his confidant. I am not. I only answered because the number looked familiar. Of course it did, it used to be her home phone number A YEAR AGO! The things he said stirred up so much crap. It made me feel like leaving it all behind. I want to get rid of the past. I don't want it following me around all the time. It is just waiting for me to turn and look at it again.

Sadly, it doesn't matter where I go, the past is always there, it haunts no matter what. I can't start over, not unless my memory is wiped clean.