I Need Your Help!

All right, I need all the help I can get. I just applied for some positions that relate to my education. I am appealing to friends and anonymous blog readers for help. Whoever you may be, wherever you may be... please make dua (prayer) for me to get one of those positions. Only through Allah (God) all things are possible.

I need to pursue my goals, and a position that relates to my education would be a step in the right direction. I don't ask for much, just your dua.

Thank you sooooooooo much! I know at least 2 of you who read my blog and will oblige me in my request!

Yep! It's Official!

I'm PMSing!!!!

My first clue should have been that I was craving something sweet at 11:40pm anyway. It only went downhill from there.

I decided on a small bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios. A little sweet, but somewhat healthy. It helps to lower cholesterol! So I poured just a little bit. And then I thought, "It's a small bowl I won't spill it if I turn off the light and then carry it." I was wrong. I hadn't even picked it up, I spilled it. And then I stared at the spilled cheerios and milk and I started crying.

Yep, I'm PMSing.

Strange Night

So I passed a somewhat strange evening sleeping in my mom's house. I don't sleep well in a strange place. Now, you may be thinking, "What? Your mom's house is a strange place?" Aside from the fact that my parents run a fine line between crazy and crazier, yes, it is strange to sleep here. I only ever get a really good night's sleep in my own bed.

I slept in my little brother's room and he has this little gadget that is VERY annoying. At a certain time every night (I think around 2am) the thing goes off to the "Happy Birthday" tune. I stumbled around his room looking for the dratted thing, and finally found it. I just kept pushing buttons until it shut up. Five minutes later it went off again. The gadget and I repeated our performance about four times before it shut up for good. Annoying!

I am actually thinking about taking the thing to the back of the house and destroying it. I asked my mom how he can stand having that thing in his room. She said he must be used to it. Ugh!

Any way I stayed the night to either go shopping with my mom today or spend time with little brother while my mom and step-dad went shopping. So, here I am at 10am on the computer blogging. Mom and step-dad went shopping and little brother is still sleeping. He's getting to the teens. I am downstairs, and the dog is lying on her bed snoring. The dog snores louder than a person. It's crazy. Last night I thought my little brother fell asleep in the chair and was snoring. Nope, it was the dog.

Exciting day, huh? Will that kid wake up already?

Miracles Never Cease!

I can't believe it. I really can't believe it.

My sister and I actually got along today.

We got along!

Have you any idea how monumental that is? She wasn't mean. She wasn't nasty. She didn't try to start a fight with me. Maybe she is finally starting to grow up. She actually has a job too. Frankly, I'm shocked. There really isn't much else to say about it.

My parents are taking me out for dinner in a few weeks. My sister wants to come with! It's for my birthday (I don't have much of a choice). My mom does what she wants. If she wants to celcbrate my birthday, I'll let her. She did give birth to me after all. But my sister wants to come? Whoa!!!

You Asked For It, You Got It!

Well maybe you didn't ask for toe socks, but you got 'em anyway! These are a new pair that a friend of mine "gifted" me. Monkeys! Okay so they kind of look crazy on my feet, but there is just something about toe socks that ya gotta love! Don't worry I don't wear the crazy animal socks when I pray!

4 Days Away From Work!

4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work! 4 Days Away From Work!

That thought doesn't excite me in the least.

SOCKS!

What is it about these striped socks that I love so much? It could be that they are super soft, that they are super cool, or that I think my feet look cute in them. Whatever it is they are awesome. They pull in at a close second to toe socks, nothing compares to toe socks. Maybe I will post a pic of toe socks later, just for fun.

(This is the weird stuff that takes place when you live alone)

Homebound

Okay, so I'm not always the smartest. Yester-evening I ate something I'm allergic to without thinking about it. It did not bode well for me this morning. Therefore I did not go to work today.

Smart, really smart.

At least I didn't eat Tilapia. That would have been a much worse allergic reaction. Anybody remember when that happened? Driving myself to the hospital with my throat closing shut. Calling my mom to let her know what I'm doing, as she laughs because my voice starts to sound more and more manly. My husband coming home and thinking I'm on the other side of the wall playing a game with him so he keeps running around and around it. Finally he realizes I'm not there and calls my mom. All this and I am sitting in the waiting room because they shined a flashlight down my throat to make sure I had enough of an airway to wait. I waited to be seen for about an hour. Pretty sure I'll NEVER eat Tilapia again.

Today what I ate only affected my stomach, and not in a good way.

Literature

I graduated with 3 majors, one of them being English Lit. You have to realize that 4 years of college will only allow you to cover a certain amount of literature. I am trying to hit some of the classics that were not included in the classes I had. I recently read "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen. I am now working on "Great Expectations" by Charles Dickens. I am getting towards the end. I have read Dickens' "A Tale of Two Cities" a while ago. There is one thing I have learned about reading Dickens:

Never read Dickens if you are depressed.

If you are looking for a happy ending, Dickens will not provide you with it. Look elsewhere.

Oh So Cold!

I am seemingly unable to have a normal showering experience on Tuesdays. Last Tuesday I gashed my foot on the fixture. This morning, oh the memory chills me! I was in the shower around 5am. I had no hot water, not even warm water! It was super cold. I realize that around 7am many people are showering to be to work by 8, and sometimes there isn't as much hot water. But at 5am?!! How many people are using hot water at 5am? I cannot go to work without showering, I would have felt disgusting. I froze. I started to turn purple. PURPLE!! That's not cool! That was SO NOT the way I wanted to wake up!

Family

Today at work I began to think about family. Many people I know are close with so many members of their family. They are close with their aunts, uncles, cousins, and beyond. For me, it's not like that. I am close with my mom, step-dad, little brother, my dad, my step-mom, and my grandparents on my mom's side. My sister chose a path of drugs and stealing, so I'm not really in contact with her.

What happened to all my aunts, uncles, and cousins? They don't really have anything to do with me. Strangely enough this has nothing to do with being a muslim. They are just self-involved people, and they never had much of anything to do with me. Does this make me sad? It used to.

What is the meaning of family anyway? Is it someone who is your blood relation only? My little brother is adopted, and he is the most precious thing to me. He is so special and my mom didn't carry him for nine months. Family is about caring and love. Besides the family I mentioned above, I have many more members.

I have my friends, my muslim sisters. It used to make me sad that I didn't have a sister to talk to, or cousins to hang out with. Alhamdulilah, Allah has put so many more precious family members in my life through Islam. It is through this sisterhood that I feel a complete sense of family. (Of course a husband and some kids will be great too, InshaAllah!)